Getting Started

A few months ago, I was reminded of writing's healing power. On February 6, I was having a particularly difficult time processing the many emotions that have resulted from both infertility and the adoption process. As I lay in bed with my mind racing, my impatience to have a child became so overwhelming that I felt as if my prayers were falling on deaf ears. They, of course, weren't and God gently reminded me of the one thing that has always brought me release and peace...writing. So, that night I sat down and wrote my first letter to our child. This letter brought me to a place of peace and, even more importantly, to a place of understanding. For the first time in a long time, I could see God at work and I felt blessed to be in the position I was in...tears, impatience, and all! Since then, I have written only a few more times, but have been wanting to make it a regular habit. So, here I am doing something I thought I would never do. I am posting in a blog...a public blog. I have to admit that I am stressed about people reading these and their resulting judgments of me. But, it is something that I feel led to do as well. Adoption is an incredible thing and I want to share it with all of you. I can't promise to always speak out of a place of wisdom and understanding, but I can promise to be honest in this journey that God has set my husband and I on. To give you some background, I will be sharing two of my letters with you in the next few postings, starting with the letter I wrote on February 6. Enjoy!